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12:15 p.m. - 2001-06-24 Over the course of the coming week, it would be wise to know when to move ahead and when to hold back. As Mercury is now at the point of moving forward again, progress will be resumed in a number of matters. But you do need to listen to that inner sixth sense. Don't just assume that because one particular area of your life has started to look promising, that you can charge ahead with everything else. Mars is still in retrograde motion, and with the Sun now in Cancer, both indicate that jumping in feet first is not going to lead to success. Ideally you need to take one step and then test this out to make sure it is stable and solid before proceeding to the next. You may even get better results if you allow the flow of events to guide you, rather than deciding exactly how things are going to be. If you have been battling with a specific difficulty, you may finally get to see that it is not so much "out there" as in your mind, and that you are allowing it to have such a powerful effect on you. Just let it go. What the fuck is this? My brother's writing my horoscope now? This is awesome, and somewhat frightening, i get one of those personalized horoscopes by email everyday, you know the one targeted to your birth and date, age, and name. Whoaaa.. anyways lots of areas in my life look promising, for once in oh, fuck what, 3 years? Maybe all my hard work is finally paying off. I think so. WHOO HOO! ::dances around:: I mean, shit, my fry from way back are still alive, and well, and now getting pigment. This is good. This is progress. Now TWO spawns. Opaques, small spawn, but still the fry live.. the fry are sooo tiny, compared to the other fry.. the other fry are big enough to eat finely crushed up fd brine shrimp with thier microworms now. Big enough to look like white dots if i snap a picture. The other area of my life is my health is looking better, even with a contracted ulcer, because i think the ulcer is forcing me to take care of myself better, cut down on coke, drink water, not neglect meals. Plus, i get to grocery shop. It's my household duty, and i love it :).. I'm buying all the healthy stuff, go me ::does a cheer::, and now my social life is perking a little bit, yesterday i spent nearly all day talking to this guy named Billy, we have EVERYTHING in common, so much it scares us both. Right Biwwy? Not Cute x Infinite ::sticks out tounge:: hehehe, yup.. i feel like i've known that man all my life. I wonder if he's in any of the BBQ pics. Anyhow, things are looking cheery for me. Summer always brings me good things. Summer is my friend. ::hugs weather:: June always brings good things too ::hugs June:: The best thing of all, though, (besides the fact my fry are still kicking) is that i'm starting to get to know myself again.. getting a grasp on that.. so now my next project is going to be, room decorating, new collage, poster the room, decorate the crap out of it. I've been living in a drab room here for too long, i left it drab, cause this place never felt like home.. and because i was too busy with other stuff. To me this place showed all my failures.. not anymore. Things look promising. I didn't know this room could even *look* nice, even with decorations, then i got the comforter and it brightened my entire room up. The dark sleep of depression, is morphing into a light sleep. But even as things perk, i know i won't jump head first into anything, because frankly i know better, and learned my lesson in the past. Sometimes if you don't survey for possible sharks in the water, you get eaten. I'm just happy for the sunlight actually coming through into my room today, and i'm happy for the June Bugs i keep rescuing out of fish tanks, and i'm happy with me, cause its about time the season changed. Even if my life is as unpredicable as "California Weather", i'm happy for today. Today is all i need.
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